I feel a bit silly bumping this, but thought it was the most appropriate place to write this! The revived DoND has brought back a lot of memories and made me feel 21 again.
It's been virtually 15 years since I was on the show and it's strange to think it's been that long. I'll be 36 next week, and it's odd to think that current contestants in their early 20s were only small children back then.
I was recently looking at old threads and I read back through this one. I'd forgotten how several people were a bit obsessed about me not smiling enough. They confused being nervous with me being grumpy or not wanting to be there. I was so excited to be there but was indeed very nervous, particularly at the start (for various reasons). It was a big thing for me to do, especially as I'd not long been out of school really (three-and-a-half years) and used to get very nervous even just presenting in front of classmates.
I've never watched my show back in full but I've seen clips (I couldn't watch too much of myself in one go and I still can't!). Obviously I have many memories of actually filming it though, and I still feel pleased I was relaxed enough during my actual game to mess around with Noel in the way I did. He really put me at ease which is why I felt comfortable enough to be myself. I probably irritated some people but Noel always said "it's your game" and I made it my own.
I always dreamed of winning around £20k, so I didn't quite hit that with the £6,500 I got, but it could've been so much worse. I'd have hated to leave with almost nothing which so many people obviously do. I know some people thought I messed up my 'diagonal' system, but I decided in advance how I'd do it and I did it as intended.
I didn't 'blow' the money or spend it on anything specific, so I always like to think that my bank balance now would've been £6,500 less had it not been for DoND, and indeed for Noel Edmonds, as I don't think I'd have been so interested (and applied) had he not hosted it.
My hair was probably too long back then, but it
was the late 2000s.
People nowadays who see photos of me on the show are surprised at how different I look these days. I like to think I look a bit more human now though!